Friday, December 12, 2014

Final Note

This week has been full of the holiday stress. Time slowly slips out of my hands and feel like this blog does too. I have been thinking about it, but I am questioning the future of this blog. So this is just a heads up. I am thinking of shutting down this blog. I might make another one or bring back this one, but for now I say my goodbyes. This has been a fun aspect to add to my journey. :)

Thursday, December 11, 2014


   Do you ever find it hard to understand someone? It's like, no matter how hard you try to take note of who they are, you can't. I find myself clashing with one person, but I think it happens from lack of understanding. She has her mindsets; I have mine, but neither one of us are always open to compromise. We are both very strong minded. I have this "thing" where if you tell me not to do something or tell me to do something in an unpleasing way, I will add fuel to the flames by doing the opposite. I am the type of person who likes revenge, who fights fire with fire. I don't like to back out of battles unless I have won, and I can hold a grudge longer than I will live. I guess that can make me hard to approach or deal with, but it's not something that can be easily changed. I grew up this way, and I was molded into my personality. Change isn't simple, and the same could be said from the other side. She is the complete opposite of me. She likes organization; I don't.  I prefer piles and a little clutter otherwise I get stressed out and uncomfortable. She is picky, but I look at most things and say "Eh, Good enough?" We are constantly butting heads, sometimes I think we purposely drive each other insane. At least I do.
   Anyway, if you are the one I am talking about out there reading this( you will know who you are), I'm sorry. The reason I am saying this on here and not to your face is because it's not easy. I have never been able to put my words anywhere else than in writing. So I hope that you will see this someday. If not, well oh well. Just remember, I as much as I am trying to understand you, I hope you try the same for me. I know I am complicated, but I promise you are too. I am trying, and keep that in mind. Telling me to try harder does NOT fix anything. It makes me try less, and if I try less, I'm scared you will too. And yes, I AM SCARED. I'm scared that we will someday lose hope in each other. You are an amazing person, and I want you in my life. I know sometimes I say that I don't, but that's how I am in the heat of things. I get worked up and shut down. Whenever you get mad at me, I shut down. Not because I am mad(although it does cause it a little), because I am hurt. I don't like when you say I don't try, I am incapable, or you tell me you give up. I don't want you to give up, because that means I would have to give up.
   I don't like to give up, especially on things that I care about. So please understand that I DO recognize that you are changing, and I know it is selfish of me to wish you could change faster. I know I need to change too, and note that I am trying. Everyday is a new day for me to try. Everyday is a chance for me to learn. You take my failures and treat them like failures. I take them and hold them from a different level. I see them as opportunities to learn and change, but when you treat them the way you do I can't. It makes it harder for me to learn and see the good when you constantly bring up the bad. Let this be the start of a new beginning. Let this symbol my growth and my change. Now can we take this and start learning, growing, and changing together as a team?

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Friday, November 28, 2014

Part 4!

Part 4 of "Because I Love You"
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A Hectic Week

   First, let me apologize for my neglecting behavior to this page for the past week. This week has been full of "fun" surprises. I'm sure your's was too. From Thursday to Monday, I was sick. From Tuesday to Thursday was a Thanksgiving mess. Now I finally have the chance to sit down and just write away to relaxation. 

   Happy Belated Thanksgiving to those who celebrate; I hope your day was as fun as ours. I think I could say our Thanksgiving went as well as any Thanksgiving would go. We had two days of cleaning and decorating madness. We spent the night before Thanksgiving creating menus and little table fancies. The sugar cookies were accidentally burnt, but we were able to make a homemade dough which turned out better than the Pillsbury tube, All that beside, we had a pretty good Thanksgiving.  I hope you guys had an awesome week. Next up on my list is to upload Part 4 of "Because I Love You". I still have some other posts coming down the road to work on. Busy night for me! 

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Another Wednesday Poem

Here's the second poem to add on to the list. This one has a secret surprise to a story I have been working on. After the full story of "Because I Love You" is added, I will start adding this story as the next one.

Friday, November 14, 2014

Part 3!

Happy Friday Readers! Here's Part 3 of "Because I Love You".

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Because I Love You Part 3